Even I have limits. WHAT?! That's an impossibility. I am a teacher, a mother, a wife. and more. I don't have time to not be at 100%. This is not right.
I had a cold before Nate's diagnosis and was put on antibiotics to help out, but with all of the stress, they didn't do much. When I came back to work on Thursday, I was given 90 Independent Reading Projects (10 pages each), 30 tests, and 90 Research Papers. With Midterms this week, I knew I needed to get all of this graded so I could come back this week and make my midterms exams for Thursday and Friday.
My body said, No. Friday, we went and established Nate's Medical Care Plan at school. It was good and easy, but it's scary to think about him back at school. When I got home, I graded all of my projects and tests. I thought I was on a roll.
Saturday, I took care of a health exam and exchanging some clothes, but by noon, I had a fever of 100.7. Down I went. I crawled into bed and was in and out of sleep until 8am Sunday. Apparently I needed rest. I was still sick Sunday, but I stayed in bed and grade research papers for 7 hours until they were all done.
This morning, I went back to work with a seriously stuffed nose, and my skin hurt. I can't afford to call in sick again. I took 4 days off last week. I need to save days. Anyway, I made it through the day and managed to make two midterm exams. Now, I am sitting on my couch and can barely breathe through my nose. I'm pretty stinking miserable.
I get it. I can't take care of my son if I don't take care of myself. I'm trying. I'm the only one working and I need to keep it together for all of us. I need to get healthy, but I don't know how to do it, so in the meantime I will continue to take care of my family.
UPDATE: Nate went back to school today and is now giving himself his own shots. I am SOOOOOOO PROUD of him. He has really stepped up and shown us how amazing he can be. I'm starting to feel OK with all of this, but I know the minute I get too comfortable, it can turn upside down. So, I plan on standing at attention. Saturday is our first appointment with the specialists. I'm both excited and nervous to learn even more information about this disease.
That's it for tonight.
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